i am very sad to be writing this entry today

this involves ppl who have died on august 1 so please read on or at lest see bold names if u know them!!!

this is how i came to the knowledge so not all bold names are deceased!!

my heart goes out to those who are touched most by this unfortunate entry that i am about to release.

on august 1st i recieved some very startling information that a friend of mine was declared deceased on that very same due to a horiffic car accident. this friend of mine was oscar alvarez. now after some rather hysterical phone calls to all that i thought may have known him and may even have more information to add to my very own limited data. well as it turns out after all the calls i had made to various ppl i am happy to say that he was juss fine and well in his own home. that did come to some relief that i had to find out his number and call him to confirm the wonderful news. upon calling him and having my heart jump at the sound of him answering his phone i immediately had to say i love you and thank you for being alive. i think i scared him at first until i was able to explain. this all of course resulted in rather good news. but this isn't where the story ends fer now. in lite of the matter a friend of mine was still alive thankfully, but someone else wasn't. while making calls with my best friend flonie we came to realize that somewhere down the line it was actually someone else from our graduating class that died in a car accident. his name was carlos angulo if i can spell the name ryte. he died earlier today as i am told. now i don't kno the guy but i am sure some do. the worst news came later wen i was told that along wit carlos was a guy named daniel redski of my division (566). this is sad news to me fer redski was a friend of mine. he was not my closest friend but a friend none the less. this is sad news i pass and i am sorry if this is the first u will be hearing of it. i did not mean to disturb ur summer but i thought it was something important to kno about. 

may they both rest in peace.  

L

please note that i may be editing or updating as more information becomes available to me.

if all information above is incorect and both men that i have told u about are still alive please tell me so that i may kill whomever his behind this fals information

welcome welcome to the miscellaneous rantings of complete bullshit that none should care fer.

well well well... lookie im actually updatin again. now lets see how long imma be keepin this thing up. well, like is crappy as usual. except now im off to college. i feel sorry fer uic. but nuttin really happening in boringsville as the unemployed main character of the story aimlessly wanders the hos in this pointless sitcom of complete nothingness. well can we tell im bored yet. and loosing my mind while im at it. some one save me!!!! please im beggin u. i really have no life but lets examin the happenings of the most recent episode in prisoner of the home... apparently chores has dominated the days wit slight interuptions fer dance practices fer lil sis's sweet sixteen. almost no fone usage as it seems everyone has disappeared from her life and her girlfriend is a lil over 1000 miles away. now in this upcoming episode death takes hold of boringsville. now lets see how much more boring can death make things to be.

well thats all folks tune in next time fer prisoner of the home. have a nice dai and drive carefully.

save me from myself please!!!

L

ok well im bak evr1

not much rantin 2nyt...ish in the middle of the nyt anywho. tomorrows relay and im gettin ready so im really tired now... will do this later. ish bed tym nyt nyt evry1 

L

welcome ppls!

i'm creating another wonderous entry of useless rantings that even i never understand... oh wat fun... don't u think...

we'll here goes on the rantings of ever so wonderful joy~   lemme see wats been happening to me ... well haven't gotten my grades yet but they're all pretty average ranging from a's to a d -yes a d most likely if i got one then its from that fuckin spanish class of mine... me no likey espanol<-- there should be an ~ over the n ... school needs to end now... i done with it ... i juss want to graduate already... chess is alryt i guess... i'm not improving any but the team is kewl...relay is ok i think ... i haven't been there in a while and its in less than a month ... wat can i say i've been busy almost every monday so far... i need to be getting the low down from some one... aside from that wat else is new.... oh yea ish mai dads b-day on tues. the 26... so yea i think thats it

laytrz

L

ish been 11 months, 1 week, and 5 days with mai beautiful lady and we still going strong!!!

hey wassup ppls!!!

lookie who's bak on the xanga shit... ish me mutha fuckerz!!! L's bak on this shit fer even more theraputical bullshit ... looks like the problems juss keep a comin' right bitches?!?! well here's all the nitty gritty shit since i'm bak (and i actually thought i could do with out dis crap) ... well now lets list the crap goin' on:

SKEWL

ish still there it seems ... standing as alwaiz ... don't think ish goin' NEwhere NEtime soon either ... senioritis is a bitch ... i juss can't seem to get awai from this shit... i need to fuckin' graduate already and get the hell awai from all this crap ... grades are seemingly alryt ... juss ain't failin' yet. i don't think so at least ... but hey u never kno NEmore now do u ... i still don't even get spanish either ... all this crap is total bullshit ... then there's chess of course ... that ain't goin' too good either... i ain't playin' ryt no more and u kno wat ... i don't think i wanna play NEmore ... chess used to be an outlet of some kind ... a way to get the hell outta the house and to vent mai emotions into somethin' more inatimate than mai own body... now the shit don't help ... it juss seems to be addin' on even more stress and that shit ain't gonna help my already fading life ... well fuck that shit!!! i fuckin' give up already ... now alls mai ass is gonna do is cruize the fuck by it. i don't give a fuck wat happens long as i graduate the fuck outta here ... if only mai ass good leave the whole place completely instead of stayin' instate

FAMILY

 well, wat can i say bout them ... they're all still living (not that i want any of them dead) ... they all still naggin' bout this shit and that ... they ain't stopped naggin' fer shit in the world ... i guess mai lil ass is juss some big ass disappointment to every1 ... well u kno wat i say bout that ... fuck every1coz u all ryt ... i ain't shit! i ain't never gonna be shit NEwaiz! not like i do NEthing ryte NEwai ...

HEALTH

well now thats a fun topic ... here's how thats goin' along ... IT FUCKIN SUX ASS!!! im gettin' sicker everyday ... if this shit don't hurt then that shit does ... ish like nomatter wat i do to fix one thing another one starts wit me ... and there are too many goddamned doctors werkin on me now like im some run down piece of shit ... i mean damn old ladies a re healthier than i am physically, emotionally, and mentally ... oh well ... if i die of some shit, then i die ...

FRIENDS

well that one ain't quite as bad as the other ... i got me some friends who'll stick by me through thick and thin nomatter wat ... u all kno who u are ... best part is u all don't judge me and i do thank u all fer that ... mai problems are juss that ... my problems, but u all are still there fer me wen i do need u and even wen i don't ... u all don't give up on me ... now those be tru friends ... that's love man ... and that'll actually be somethin imma need alot of coz i'm juss seriously falling apart ... thanx fer alwaiz tryin to pick mai ass bak up ... i love u all!

LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well here's a rather touchy topic ... those of u all who see me kno the latest shit wit me ... and those who don't, well lets juss say ish kinda like the crap from the top of the entry but then ish still the greatest thing in the world ... i don't kno wats up wit mai lady and me any more ... alls i kno is that im completely in love wit her and that'll never change ... our fyture is in her hands now ... all i can do is hope fer the best but prep fer the worst shit ... we'll see where it goes ... if everythin' goes south thou then imma need all mai friends there to keep me from bein' stupid (i.e. paddy wagon shit ... u can stop lol-ing now ... ) coz i kno imma want to do somethin' like try to kill my self (worst case senerio-> myt mot be as bad-> thou i doubt it won't be) ...

well i guess thats my fucked up lyf ... hope u all got a better one!

L

p.s relationship update: ish been 11 months and 3 days wit me and mai lady